It’s been awhile since I last shared something on social media. While most creators went HAM on social media during quarantine (a wise decision) I deleted the apps off my phone. I needed to get away from it all. I've always hated it to some degree, but begrudgingly participate because it’s “required." For the life of me I’ll never understand why anyone who isn’t a comedian/musician/boss babe peddling products would want to participate in this mess. Personally, I’d much rather send content directly to a friend which hits their particular funny bone, that way we both can take that moment to really enjoy it. A single, “Lolololololol" via text message counts for something right?!
I almost came back many times. I’d have an idea for a skit/show, get excited, then procrastinate just long enough for the motivation to go away, and the idea to feel foreign. It became my process. I want to work on this, along with hating social media a little less (maybe even liking it a little more?). Viewing it as a platform that allows me to share something that I wanted to create, and connect with creative folks. Not a weapon to beat myself up every time a post flops and some tween gets a millions of likes for doing the dance of the week. Focusing on the negatives has prevented me from creating, and the only thing that makes me more miserable than the success of trendy garbage, is not creating at all.
I miss the stage, I miss performing, I miss great shows and the horrible ones. I’d take those anxieties over my current ones in a racing heartbeat. I miss connecting with the community- seeing friends, enemies, and everything in between. I miss shows that never start, and ones that never end. I miss bracing for a punchline I’ve heard 100 times, and them doing the same for me. I miss nights where you get nothing from the audience then afterwards they tell you, “hilarious, great job!" Welp, those things nights aren’t coming back anytime soon, so I might as well make the best of it. Here’s to a little less overthinking and a little more participating!
PS - Here's a picture of my new kitty!